So this facebook thing, I don't really get it right, I mean I'm starting to. I think I do. I don't understand most of the applications that have been foisted upon me, I don't like being alerted to the fact that "1 of your friends has compared you to another friend, and they think you have better hair," or something, when I can't even find out who I was compared to or who thinks I have better hair or anything. But I'm on facebook at the moment, hoping mostly that someone will talk to me (apparently you can do this with this chat thing down the bottom) while I desperately try to put off reading an 163 page report on partner rape so I can write a 500 word essay on it, and why it sucks especially bad for low income earners. I kind of wish that I had picked an easier topic like "Why lesbians can't adopt" or something but look, I just didn't want to okay.

So instead I'm on facebook looking through this "people you may know" list that seems to be growing bigger all the time, and it turns out I do know these people, or did know these people but now they are doing things like being in a relationship with someone called Angus or going to universities and it says they've graduated because they don't understand that your class year is not just the year it is that you're both in class and making a facebook. (Year in question being 2007)

So I'm looking through these things right, and some times I get not really sad but a bit funny feeling, because some of these people I may know, I really knew, I mean like were really my friends. And then I'm like "well why didn't they add me" but then I realise that some of these people were dicks. I mean like, really. One of my best friends once said to me "So and so got gastro and lost 4kg in 5 days, maybe you should get gastro" and then laughed, and like wow that is a really dickish horrible thing to do. I mean most highschool people are horrible, that's just a fact but this was from a person who I think personally prided themselves on being a lot more mature than most highschool people. And who did a lot of other really horrible things.

I guess the point is that recently I think, by recently I mean over the last year I've become more and more reclusive (whereas it seems (according to facebook, which is what this entry so far is really about) that when you leave highschool you're meant to get more and more outgoing) and people take note of this - when I see people I haven't seen in a while they say things like "Nobody's seen you in ages!" or "You should really come to this thing...no really, do come," the latter with a kind of soft pity or maybe to convince me that most people really aren't that bad (it sounds like I hate it when people do it, I don't). I think that in highschool you put up more with horrible people and in turn churn out your own bit of horribleness, whether you mean to or not, just to fit in. I think now that I put up a lot less with other people being horrible, and I hope that I'm less horrible. I think I am.

Anyway the fact remains that I'm really bored and I really don't want to write this essay. The fact that I'm sitting on the couch and not at my desk is no help. In between the start of writing this and now I've also gone and eaten some corn chips and tuna (good combo) and blow dried my dog, and then made him wee twice by accident. Maybe I'll add a meme onto this if I get desperate.